A Smoke and a Song: A Daughter's Memoir of Living in the Layers

In January 2021, Sherry Sidotis' mother is diagnosed with terminal cancer, prompting her to prioritize a trip to Manhattan over empty-nesting and her "second chance" with fiancé Jevon. She is beckoned to answer the question of whether freedom is found in "letting go" or by digging our heels deeper into the earth and holding on to our humanness. This is a story of Sherry's quest to make meaning from her memories, exploring the complexities of transgenerational maternal bonds, attachment, loss, and leaning in to our wounds to find wisdom.

Format: Paperback / softback
Length: 256 pages
Publication date: 01 August 2023
Publisher: She Writes Press

In the depths of the global pandemic, ten months into its grip, Sherry Sidotis' world was turned upside down when her mother was diagnosed with terminal cancer. Prioritizing a trip to Manhattan over the long-awaited empty-nesting and her "second chance" with fiancé Jevon, Sherry found herself grappling with the profound question that had haunted her since childhood: Is freedom truly found in "letting go," as the spiritual teachers insisted, or is it found by digging our heels deeper into the earth and holding on to our humanness?

A Smoke and a Song is Sherry's poignant journey, a story of her quest to find meaning in the memories etched into her body. Told with unwavering tenacity, tender compassion, and a wry sense of humor, Sherry stumbles towards self-actualization, spiritual awakening, and, against all odds, love. This is a tale steeped in art and spirituality, exploring the intricate complexities of transgenerational maternal bonds, attachment, loss, and the courage to lean into our wounds in search of wisdom.

As Sherry embarks on this transformative journey, she is accompanied by the vibrant art world of her mother, a talented painter who has always been her guiding light. Through their shared experiences and deep connection, Sherry begins to unravel the secrets of her mother's life and art, discovering the profound impact that her mother's struggles and triumphs have had on her own existence.

As Sherry delves deeper into her mother's past, she uncovers a series of hidden wounds and traumas that have shaped her mother's life and art. Through her own healing journey, Sherry learns to embrace her own vulnerabilities and imperfections, finding strength and resilience in the face of adversity.

In the midst of her personal growth, Sherry also discovers the power of spirituality and meditation in helping her navigate the complexities of life and loss. She attends meditation retreats and explores different spiritual practices, seeking solace and guidance in the face of her mother's terminal diagnosis.

Through her journey, Sherry learns to let go of the past and embrace the present moment with open arms. She finds solace in the love and support of her fiancé Jevon, who stands by her side through every step of the way. Sherry also reconnects with her estranged father, who has been absent from her life for many years.

As Sherry's mother's health deteriorates, Sherry faces the difficult decision of whether to stay by her mother's side or pursue her own dreams and aspirations. Through a series of soul-searching conversations with her mother, Sherry learns to balance her own needs with her mother's wishes, finding a way to honor her mother's legacy while also pursuing her own path.

In the final chapters of the book, Sherry's mother passes away peacefully, leaving behind a legacy of love, art, and inspiration. Sherry finds solace in the knowledge that her mother's spirit lives on in her and in the memories they shared. She continues to explore her own creativity and spirituality, using her mother's art as a source of inspiration and guidance.

A Smoke and a Song is a powerful and moving story that explores the complexities of life, love, loss, and healing. Sherry Sidotis' journey is a testament to the resilience of the human spirit and the power of connection and creativity. This book will touch the hearts of readers who are searching for meaning and purpose in their own lives, reminding us that even in the darkest of times, there is always the possibility of growth, healing, and love.

Weight: 406g
Dimension: 139 x 217 x 23 (mm)
ISBN-13: 9781647425098